Thinking.

why is he taking forever to text you back?

hes prolly drinking, actually hes prolly halfway to drunk.

i mean i shouldnt have said not to drink to much.

of course hes going to, hes at a party with his friends who party.

i cant get mad cuz then he will keep doing it, i mean thats how it works right.

ugh too late im already mad. 

he can get shitty with me for smoking weed one time and i was with him..

and he goes and drinks without me all the time.

we had an agreement that hed only drink with me..

guess i was stupid to think it would actually go like that..

i dont like his friends becuase of that…

and i mean if hes with me..and im drinking too like its ok.

as fucked up as that sounds.

but at least then i know what hes doing.

hes not flirting with other girls..or doing something really stupid.

like he used to always do when he drank.

like i just dont know.

and it sucks cuz i have NO ONE to distract my mind.

talk me through it.

becuase my dumbass moved.

and now i have no friends. no one.

im alone, on a friday night after work

while the one person i have

my boyfriend

is off at a football party

prolly getting wasted even though he knows ill be so pissed

and with all his friends.

ignoring me.

life is just so grand.

like part of me wants to express all of this to him

but then the other part doesnt.

like what if what im thinking is actually true?

yea i dont want to face that.

i ran from all my problems in indiana 

to create even more bigger ones here.

can i just get something to turn my mind off

even for a few hours…please?

The Five Types Of *N Sync Songs There Are

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There are fifth graders who have not been alive since the boy band’s retirement. There are people who don’t know we once valued Justin’s back up dancers just as much as we valued him. As such, it is only right that we, the privileged millennials who begged our parents into chaperoning us to the No Strings Attached tour, introduce our boys to a new generation.

While we were busy loading our five-disc boom boxes with all matters of boy band and girl power jams, we probably didn’t notice certain lyrical themes all that quickly. Never fear, however: to prepare us for what could only be the greatest reunion of. all. time we can now call upon the power of our college degrees. (Hey, that crippling debt’s gotta be good for something.)

As such, whether you need to explain to your tween cousin why this potential assemblage is so important to…

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50 Questions To Ask Your Crush To See If They’re Right For You

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1. What is one thing you will never do again?

2. Would you rather be twice as smart or twice as happy?

3. What happened the last time you cried?

4. What happened the time in your life when you were the most nervous to do something?

5. What would your…

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10 Seasonal Things We Need More Of Throughout The Year

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1. Shark Week.

If there’s a type of programming that draws viewers and is widely enjoyed, why not just give the people what they want? I understand that some things are best consumed in smaller increments, but television documenting carnivorous fish isn’t one of them. In 1926 there was black history week, which turned to black history month in 1976 and guess what? Four years later, in 1980, BET (Black Entertainment Television) was founded. Horrible comparison? Probably, but that doesn’t change the fact that a channel strictly dedicated to shark content would gobble up a ton of ratings.

2. Pumpkin flavored things.

I’m looking at you, Starbucks. What’s a brotha to do when it’s June and he’s craving a pumpkin spice latte? Stop trying to make cake pops happen and give the people 365 days of access to glory. WHAT DO WE WANT? Year-round pumpkin! WHEN DO WE WANT…

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The Story So Far Fall Tour

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The Story So Far announced their fall tour with Stick To Your Guns,  Such Gold and Rotting Out with Souvenirs and Heart to Heart on select dates

11/01 Santa Cruz, CA – The Catalyst ^
11/02 Seattle, WA – El Corazon ^
11/03 Portland, OR – Hawthorne Theatre ^
11/05 Salt Lake City, UT – Murray Theatre ^
11/06 Denver, CO – Summit Music Hall ^
11/07 – Omaha, NE – Sokol Underground ^
11/08 – Iowa City, IA – Gabes ^
11/09 – Burnsville, MN – The Garage ^
11/11 – Louisville, KY – The Vernon Club ^
11/12 – Indianapolis, IN – The Irving Theater ^
11/13 – Birmingham, AL – Zydeco ^
11/14 – Atlanta, GA – The Masquerade ^
11/15 – Jacksonville, FL – Roc Bar ^
11/16 – Vero Beach, FL – Heritage Center ^
11/17 – Tampa, FL – The Orpheum ^
11/19 – Greensboro, NC – Greene Street ^
11/20 – Richmond…

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my life.

Im really upset with the fact that i finally kinda sorta figured out what i wanted to go to college for and now all i wanted is washed away. gone in a blink. i should have just kept my mouth shut. i had this amazing idea to go to college next semester, get my buisness degree, and start my own hookah lounge. like my ideas were so perfect and i talked to my boyfriend about it and he seemed pretty excited about it. and we even mentioned some people who we could really benefit working for us. but now the entire idea is gone. like now i have no chance in succedding. my boyfriend decided to have a “buisness meeting” i had no clue about, i had to ask what he was doing cuz he wasnt talking to me. Hes meeting up with his super rich friend who owns these really successful buisness. he’s talking to him about opening a hookah lounge. like im so pissed. the one thing i thought i could actually possibly succeed with and now i have no chance becuase of my own boyfriend. like ya i get the fact that i know you are being successsful with your life and doing things you want and you have people to pay for your college. but i dont. and im not good at much. actually im pretty useless. and now i feel even more useless. i moved and left everything in indiana. and now im here, no friends, no college, no car, no dreams of being successful because im pretty sure its impossible for me. and i know no one will read this but its just nice to get it out of my system seeing how i have no one to talk to. i just feel like a nobody, completly useless like if i dissapreaed it really wouldnt matter.

and i suck at spelling and dont feel like fixing my errors lol