why is he taking forever to text you back?
hes prolly drinking, actually hes prolly halfway to drunk.
i mean i shouldnt have said not to drink to much.
of course hes going to, hes at a party with his friends who party.
i cant get mad cuz then he will keep doing it, i mean thats how it works right.
ugh too late im already mad.
he can get shitty with me for smoking weed one time and i was with him..
and he goes and drinks without me all the time.
we had an agreement that hed only drink with me..
guess i was stupid to think it would actually go like that..
i dont like his friends becuase of that…
and i mean if hes with me..and im drinking too like its ok.
as fucked up as that sounds.
but at least then i know what hes doing.
hes not flirting with other girls..or doing something really stupid.
like he used to always do when he drank.
like i just dont know.
and it sucks cuz i have NO ONE to distract my mind.
talk me through it.
becuase my dumbass moved.
and now i have no friends. no one.
im alone, on a friday night after work
while the one person i have
is off at a football party
prolly getting wasted even though he knows ill be so pissed
and with all his friends.
life is just so grand.
like part of me wants to express all of this to him
but then the other part doesnt.
like what if what im thinking is actually true?
yea i dont want to face that.
i ran from all my problems in indiana
to create even more bigger ones here.
can i just get something to turn my mind off
even for a few hours…please?